Tuesday, November 23, 2010

Thanksgiving 2010

I was thinking back on how i spent thanksgiving last year, and I was in Iraq and didn't do a thing. I didn't even eat cause the line to the DFAC (food hall) was way to long. I went to my room and spent it alone. So I'm thankful that this year I'm back home spending it with people I love and that Ill actually get food!!!! And I'm thankful for all the troops that are serving over seas who are giving up all of their holidays. Its not easy spending holidays all by yourself, especially after growing up being taught to spend it with families. I know it changed me. After a year of not celebrating any holiday it changes your views on almost everything. I'm alot more grateful and thankful for things Ive never thought about before. I'm thankful for having a roof over my head. I'm thankful for having my own bathroom, and the privacy it offers. I'm thankful for freedom, for a car and stores. I'm thankful for a husband who is willing to sacrifice so much for people who don't always appreciate what he does. I'm thankful for all of my family and friends who have stuck by me through thick and thin and throughout all of the years Ive been away. I'm thankful for all the memories I have of me and my grandma and all of the advice she gave me throughout the years. (Miss you so much) I'm thankful for this blessing that's growing inside of me. I'm thankful for my little puppy Max and cat Skittles. They help keep my spirits up.  I'm thankful for having the knowledge of the things that i do have, that most don't. Being in a different country where i had people come up to me begging me to help them in any way get to the United States, helped me realize how blessed I really was. I'm thankful for the courage that's gave me the opportunity  to serve my country. I'm also thankful for a big family! I love having a bunch of siblings. It keeps life interesting. I could go on and on and I'm also thankful for that. I have so much to be thankful for. But most of all I'm thankful that i have Life and Its a pretty good one.

Saturday, November 20, 2010

The Beginning!!

Hey! I saw alot of people getting these blogs and decided it was about time that i got one up myself! Well let me give you all a small recap of the big things I have gone through in the past year. Well lets go back to the end of December when i came home from my deployment from Iraq. It was definitely a life changing experience. But I'm really glad that I got the opportunity to go. I actually wanted to go back as soon as I got back to the states. It was a real adjustment coming from a place that offered nothing, back home where we have freedom. 
Lets jump all the way to June 8th, when i decided to do the unthinkable and get married to my now husband Durl White Jr. We didn't really want to get married in a court house but there was no other way at the time. We would've have to wait years and then not even then we would be grantee that we would still be stationed at the same area. But the plan is after this next deployment we want to have a big wedding back in California, where our family and friends can come.
At the end of August I got my big news that i was expecting. Came as a total shock. We had wanted to wait at least a few years before we started having children. But at the same time, I got a bit excited. How could the idea of a baby disappoint you? :) Few weeks later found out that the due date was may 4th. We get to find out the sex of the baby on Dec. 10th and i can not wait!!!
Well in the army, if you get pregnant you have the option of staying in or getting out. Durl and I discussed all of our options. If we both stayed in, we would have to sign over both our rights of our child to someone else. I could NOT see that happening. Not that we don't have great people who i wouldn't trust, but that's my baby. I also couldn't see us both deploying a year away, every other year. I would be missing out so much of our blessing. So as of Nov 15th 2010, I got a honorable discharge out of the army. Its only been a few days since Ive been out, but it does feel strange. No doubt in my mind that I made the right decision.
I have an amazing husband, who supports me and very much loves me. I got lucky finding him and cant wait for everyone else that I love to meet him. He plans on staying in the army for the full 20 years to take care of me and our family. And I truly do appreciate the sacrifices that he has made and will be making through out the years. Its not going to be easy but it will be worth it.
Well that's enough for now... will write again soon!